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TheBigCheese_69
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Hi, I make Geometry Dash levels for VTubers! My Discord is thebigcheese_69 so hit me up! (I'm also a VA lmao)
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TheBigCheese_69
MASSIVE ANNOUNCEMENT.
I have partnered up with Youtube song artist 'Dysmn' to get his songs onto Newgrounds for anyone to use in GD.
https://dysmndysmn.newgrounds.com/
If you are interested in having one of their songs uploaded to Newgrounds, DM me (thebigcheese_69) and I'll go ahead and tell him to do it.
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TheBigCheese_69
Since I'm getting recognition, lemme plug rq. Join my creator team Discord server!
https://discord.gg/TZnpNgYsXd
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TheBigCheese_69
Regarding my most recent level: Suicide.
Looks like it's gaining some traction, so I thought I'd give some context on why I made it. About two years ago, my ex girlfriend passed away in a car accident. That, among other things that happened in that year, sent me spiraling. I resented myself, started believing every bad thing that happened was my fault, that things would never get better. I overmedicated myself to stay focused on anything that wasn't the existential dread that ate me from the inside like a ravenous parasite. I found myself lashing out far too commonly, pushing others away when they tried to help me. I hated myself, and for that reason "everyone hated me".
Right..?
At least that's what my mind kept telling me. I couldn't go an hour without thinking about her, and I started to think it was my fault. I wasn't the drunk driver, I wasn't even in the car... "But it had to have been my fault, right? No, I'm being selfish. I'm just making everything about myself again". The constant overthinking, the constant mental war in my mind, the constant dread eating away at my very being. It drove me insane. The prescriptions weren't helping. "I need more! Maybe I should just overdose and fucking die. I'd be better off, right?" My friends tried to help. Even my Twitch viewers were scared for me. I wasn't in the right state of mind to be streaming then, but streaming was the only thing stopping me from downing a bottle of Tylenol. But eventually, after months of fighting a losing battle, streaming wouldn't stop me.
The first attempt was to overdose. Thankfully, I decided to send an "I love you" message to my server as a final goodbye. Turns out one of my friends at the time, 'Izzy', ended up calling the PD in my city and I was hospitalized for a few days. Now I should've realized then that I was making a mistake. I was saved, and there aren't many people out there who can say they have someone in their life who would even give a shit. I was lucky, but that didn't take the pain away.
The second attempt is what made me realize I'm here for a reason. They say revolvers never jam, y'know? There I was, sitting in my room, looking down at the bullet that should've killed me. It snapped me out of everything, out of the claustrophobic web of dread that encased me like a spider's silk. Maybe the world wants me to live. Maybe there is a reason to keep going. Maybe it's time I let go, realize that maybe the universe has a plan for me. Things will get better, they always will. Fast-forward 2 years and I'm with a new girl, Mae. She's such a sweetheart, and I would give the world for her. I have so many friends that support me, love what I do, and make me realize that maybe the world isn't all that cruel. I've started speaking out on my experience, helping people out of the same sinking ship I found myself stuck on all those years ago.
I found my purpose, and that purpose is to live.
You mean more to this world than you think.
There is always someone who cares.
No matter the pain you may feel, Please. Keep living. Suicide is never the only option.
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TheBigCheese_69
I'm here to announce that I am officially a Noomba! (I'm still a part of the fameely, of course).
Yall Noombas have been SO supportive for the project I worked on for Numi, so I'll be making even more for you guys. Thank you so much for all the recent support I've gotten!!! β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈ
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Dysmn
(9 days ago)
Peak
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bugubag
(9 days ago)
iβm very touched by this layout. i went through similar emotions and thereβs probably a universe out there where i wouldβve ended up dead. this level is my favorite layout by far now. the song, the story, the gp, i love it all
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notswami
(8 days ago)
Ok ngl I was expecting some edgelord shit from the title. But this is now genuinely one of my favorite layouts-- literally perfect flow, song rep, and symbolism. Absolutely fucking awesome <3
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Mrmic0407
(5 days ago)
Stage one: Daniel.
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Akuriserv
(10 days ago)
I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH AND THIS LEVEL DEPICTS IT SO WELL THIS IS GENUINELY ONE OF THE BEST THINGS IβVE SEEN INSANE WORK
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syifasauqiyah-3x
(9 days ago (edited))
How you PERFECTLY captured that feeling is pretty insane here... this is probably one of the deepest levels you've ever made
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AhmedMXyt
(10 days ago)
you yielded this level amazingly well and absolutely did the song justice, i feel as the approach taken is not calling into the topic on a subtle way but with more straightforwardness and introspectiveness, and i truly do appreciate that.
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PaperGuy_
(9 days ago)
Honestly one of the best levels I've ever seen. Not only does the gameplay look insanely fun and the deco fits the feeling incredibly well, it also has an important message and a touching story. Amazing job
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xaviette
(7 days ago)
Did a practice run of this earlier today, and this is one of the rare layouts to actually make me feel things as i'm playing it (beyond just excitment/being impressed). Well done.
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GMDSulky
(1 day ago)
This layout was probably the best subversion of expectations Iβve ever experienced. I was honestly expecting a generic layout with that one Free99 song but what I got was so much more than that. The portrayal in this layout is unlike anything Iβve ever seen and honestly even without deco is extremely powerful.
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BPanda208
(10 days ago)
You have a very recognisable gameplay style
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SlackCoronet469
(1 day ago)
I would love to see this fully decorated, verified and featured.
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thebigcheese_6997
(10 days ago (edited))
Read the description and look at the chapters for more details about the theming. Thank you all so much for watching.
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Toonify-t7g
(8 days ago)
I've listened to this song before and it is SOOOOO good bro. You did amazing on this. Genuinely really goated level effects-wise, however i do see some parts where they get a bit lackluster and don't match the song as well to match up with the instrumentals. like some speed changes to implement where lone instruments stand out more that others.
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imperurino
(9 days ago)
Oh my Goodness... This was the first thing on my home page this morning. Rage actually sent SHIVERS down my spine and Insanity made my jaw drop. What a strong, strong layout...
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N3onp4per
(7 days ago)
This level is really just, a masterpiece. I love that each part has meaning, and that the gameplay kinda corresponds to that part. (By kinda i mean like, you cant perfectly represent guilt as gameplay. But with insanity you can so yeah you can kinda represent gameplay as emotions) I also read the description and i didnt know that the final jumps had that much thought put into them. And the level going into an all black screen like other levels but this time it hits harder since its about suicide
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CausticNW
(1 day ago)
THIS IS SO FUCKING COOL HOLY
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