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J_malicity
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Touhou “content” creator
Mostly play games and do extra stuff on the side.
I like self deprecating humor so bear with me!
Enjoy your stay!
I'm a Trickster that doesn't know solitude.
Mostly play games and do extra stuff on the side.
I like self deprecating humor so bear with me!
Enjoy your stay!
I'm a Trickster that doesn't know solitude.
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Hello, it’s me J_malicity. And I’ll like to say thank you for watching my videos after all this time. This will be my last post as malice. Sorry for the wait! Unfortunately, due to many factors, I’ve decided to finally give up and quit. It was a long time coming, and I wavered between making the decision to quit for a very long time. I’d say most of my second year as Malice has been me deciding to quit funnily enough. I was never really a confident person in regards to my work. I felt like I was lacking in most regards to myself, and my self-deprecation grew more intense by the day. I tried my hardest to smile through it, but me being me I knew it was impossible to change anything about myself. For a time it was manageable, I had people that supported me, and because of that I was able to continue. But after an unfortunate experience I was back to where I was. I became more distant and unbearable to deal with, I wondered if I could have changed things if I approached things differently in to the people I’ve lost. If the reason I have lost so much was due to me messing up somewhere. I still don’t know, and I could never get it back. I wanted to kill myself; I haven’t been happy for a very long time, and it started to affect the people around me. I too would be annoyed, it just makes sense. If I wasn’t Malice, if I wasn’t such a miserable person, I wonder if I’d be happier in life. This state lasted, and such my already shaky content just got worse and I hated it. I have no desire being who I am anymore and I just want to leave and disappear. I know this is selfish of me, though I feel this way I know things would’ve been better if I wasn’t me. I do this to myself, so I think I’m better off alone. I am slowly dying inside and I fear it’s just getting worse. The people I’ve met during my two years was an unforgettable experience, and I don’t regret meeting them! I’m sorry for the abrupt departure to my friends who read this and to the others who couldn’t, feel free to forget about me. I hate Malice, I’m tired of Malice! I’m sorry I’ve disappointed you guys, if anyone had anything to look forward to from me. Thank you for the 2 years! The only things I regret is meeting amazing people as I am, ouch! A shot I failed at, a shot taken nonetheless! Let’s look into a better future. Experience new events even! To the people who miss me I’m sorry, to the people who just remembered my existence I’m sorry for that too! No more subjugating you to anymore depressing spiel. Good luck people to whatever you are doing! Good luck to me as well! Bye-bye!! From yours truly, Malice!
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This is where I peak! I’m glad people enjoyed!
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